Motivation?
Let me start by saying that i’m not surprised. My motivation has dwindled somewhat as of late, and this has affected most (if not all) of my projects. Might be the time of year, might be a sign of burnout. I hope for the first one rather than the latter.
I think that i’ve found some reasons as to why:
I have over-extended myself between multiple things, adding too much.
I have optimized the “live”-part out of my life, leading to less new experiences.
Purpose-driven; when purpose now has faded to some degree.
Optimization
I optimize. It is almost hardwired into my very being, and it goes for you too. Our brains would like to get the most reward out of the smallest investments. Thing is, being alone; you can optimize the part of living life all away, and replace it with tasks. Tasks and scheduling is good - so i’m not bashing that. What i am bashing is trying to make yourself into an efficiency machine that is not in the need of socialization, friendships, love or passions that “only” makes you happy.
It is easy to forget, since many of us have easily can be trapped in a ever-spinning hamster wheel where we only measure progression through fancier jobs, higher salaries, more content created or other similar achievements. Instead of measuring what i would like to call internal progression. Learning about ourselves, discovering who we are, who our friends and families are; and who we would like to become. To really explore and evolve as a human being.
Going forward
There will be less content. And i wish i could say that it would be a “less but better” scenario - but i can’t promise that, and that would surprise me quite a bit if that ended up being the case. I have now entered the final “crunch”-phase of development on Arctic Submerged, and are working on some of the final features for the game. Meanwhile, i also try to study; but the motivation has also taken a hit in that department.
On the flip side; i have been WAY more social, with both friends and family as of late. That makes me happy though, but also sad after; since i have then not spent those x-amount of hours being productive, but having fun.
From those lines alone; i guess you can see why I need a productiveness-rehab/recalibration period.
Either way, have fun, take care, and be social! Remember; Life is to be lived.